HOW I STARTED OFF 2009

This is so embarrassing...I was so drunk.

Yeah like super DRUNK. I say some crazy stuff "Smells like black people"...repeat things ova and over...and yeah some other random stuff. But this is what this blog is about my RANDOM live REAL & UNCUT!

Enjoy!

P.S. Sorry Vanessa if this embarrasses you. LOL

KIWI & BIRTHDAY SEX

Me being semi-sexy. I love this song!

There is more...maybe I will put it up another day. Enjoy.

MONICAS NEW REALITY SHOW - AND I AM IN IT!

So yesterday I went to a very exclusive private concert for Monica. She is doing a reality show that will air on BET in October so this is what the concert was for.

So I will start off saying BET was on super CP time having us stand outside in the HEAT for 2 hours for a SOUNDCHECK. OMG it was ridiculous and I felt like I was gonna faint. BET GET IT TOGETHER!

But once they did it everything was cool! Monica is very pretty in person and she is so tiny for someone who has 2 kids! Thats a BAD BISH!

I made sure I was in thefront for most of it so you will be seeing me! By the way there were so many male groupies there it wasnt even funny. Esecially these two guys(assuming they ere lovers) they ket pushing me and getting on my nerves because they wanted Monica to see them. DAMN YOU WANNA BE SEEN THAT BAD! I dont care if you are gay, you are still a man and you still need to be a GENTLEMAN when you are near a woman. OMG the BITCHASNESS in ATLANTA!

She was so sweet and humble and it was great. I almost forgot how talented Monica is. She can blow and I mean BLOW from her diaphram! I love her...I always have and I want her to make this COMEBACK!

It was so refreshing to see her, not in a celebrity groupie way because I dont get star struck, but because I did grow up with her music and the industry needs her. I am sorry but I feel like Beyonce wants to dominate the industry and she can be the only "talented" woman singer out there...but I believe she is scared if she sits down for even a month someone as talented as Monica will have Beyonce nervous...But not a Beyonce hater just want her to give it a little baby rest.

Monica has been in the game for awhile, she might not be a big dancers, she might be slightly hood, but she produces great music! We need Monica back in the game & I cant wait.

Forever Always one of my favorite songs ever.

It means so much to me now that it is my main song on my other blog http://www.livelovelearnbykiwi.blogspot.com/

GET TO KNOW THE RANDOM KIWI

Hey folks.

I been slacking once again, and yet again I am sorry. I try my best but somethings just do not work the way I want them to.

So I am gonna give you a little catch up and give you reasons why you should love my crazy a**

1. I used to want to be an obstertican(person who delievers babies) when I was younger. I loved pregnant people and I was alway curious with it and wanted learn about child birth. I used to watch "A Baby Story" on TLC all the time and then after a while I just thought I couldnt do it because its nasty! LOL

2. Speaking of TLC...I loved them as a child. They were my all time favorite group ever! CRAZYSEXYCOOL was played on repeat all the time in my house.

3. I a terribly afraid of needles and blood. Like I will try to watch something educational on TV but if they show needles or blood I will like be on the verge of passing out. Ironically I love scary movies...but if I watch a graphic movie like SAW or something...I wanna pass out with that too. Its crazy!

4. Sometimes I think I am slightly psychic because everything I sing a song in my head, I will turn on the radio and that song will be playing. It happens all the time!

5. I am addicted to Wal-Mart. I have not been to Walmart in a week...THATS A BREAKTHROUGH FOR ME. I cannot go to Wal-Mart without buying less than 5 things and I always buy something that I intially did not go in there to buy-The DEVIL!

6. I was kind of a tomboy growing up, I grew up with lots of guys and had so many guy friends, but I hated SPORTS! So the girly girl always came out-I wasnt a full blown Tomboy. More like a Tomgirl...IDK

7. My first memory dates back to my first birthday. Right before I blew out the candle ( I think I blew out the candle).

8. I am very very EMPATHETIC.I cry all the time at stuff I seen in movie or on TV. I am so freaking sensitive its ridiculous. Whether it was something sad or beautiful I will cry.

9. I love my eyes but I hate when people just stare at them...and then go get other people to go look at my eyes. I feel like an alien or something. I remember and also my mom told me when I was younger people would tell my mom and look at me "She has pretty eyes" and I would shut my eyes really tight so that they couldnt look into my eyes anymore. LOL

10. Alot of people say before they met me that they would think I am quite or stuck up. But when they get to know me they usually say I am the funniest person and my personality is the complete opposite of what they thought I would be. THATS WHY YOU DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!

11. If I have any children...I would love a boy first. Because I never had an older brother and always wanted one, so I would want a boy first to protect his little sister(if I even have another child). I also hope that if my children pick up on my eye color gene, then I would want my son to have the trait and not the girl.

12.I sometimes hate how I am so skinny but have hips because alot of clothes, especially jeans do not fit me properly. Its so annoying!

13.People always assume that I am taller that I am. I am only 5'5 1/2 I have been this exact height since I was 13 and never grew that half an inch. So I cannot try out for TOP MODEL and I am positive I am not 5'7!

14. Speaking of height I love tall guy. If he is 6 ft or taller I like melt. I love love love TALL MEN! It makes me feel more feminine and I dont have to worry about if I wearing heels.

15. I sleep with a Bear name Val every night. I am never loney and Val keeps me company. DONT JUDGE ME.

16. Okay this is my nerdy side. I like to sometimes when I really wanna get away from it all I go to the bookstore and READ. Thats right I said it I like to READ BOOKS! I will sit my happy a** in a bookstore for hours and read all types of books. ITS RELAXS ME AND GIVE ME PEACE...YOU SHOULD TRY IT.

17.Speaking of Peace I am starting to do alot of mediating. Listening to soothing music and positive affirmation via Youtube during my chriopractor therapy sessions and before I go to bed...its is so peaceful...TRY THIS TOO. If you want to start this is what I am listening too ---->MEDITATION ON SELF LOVE HERE (close your eyes and do this on your bed u might go to sleep)

18.I am trying to get more of my grown and sexy on lately. I like going to new spots and lounges with pretty low-key settings.

19. I am a camera whore and I am going to Prove it to you. Dont ask me who took these pictures either! Nonayah!

Check out my other blog-----> LIVE.LOVE.LEARN by Kiwi

DESTINY'S OTHER CHILD: LETOYA LUCKETT

Check Out "She Aint" Video Below (Its disable bootleg Youtube boooo!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWuhg3lpICA

I been bumping this as my blogger top song for a while (just recently switched it up) and I love this. I love her! I always thought she was beautiful and talented and Beyonce was not the only Child of Destiny!

She kinda stepped her game up a little bit in this video. She danced more, showed more skin...if I didnt know better she was getting her Sasha Fierce on too! I love it!!!

This is like a 2009 version of her other song "She Dont". Check the video Below!

Letoya - She Don't

(she resembles Aaliyah alot in this video)

LETOYA IS A BAD BISH!

She Dont...She Aint...Real talk!

DERWIN DAVIS: MY KIND OF GUY

Pooch Hall aka Derwin Davis of "The Game"

I hate this picture of him (I googled and this was the best one).

If you watch "The Game" you know who DERWIN DAVIS is (MY URBAN SOAP OPERA).

I love him, or atleast his character, not only because he is sexy but because of the personality trait.

I know what my type is now and "Derwin Davis" is exactly the type I like.

The cute, humble, sweet-kindhearted, sometimes lame, goofy, down-to-earth type of guy.
I usually dont attract too many "Derwin's". I usually attract the totally opposites.

The fake thugs, cheaters, egotistical, flashy, arrogant, selfish kind of guy. Tired of those.

I dont want a sexy thug boy anymore. I want a "humble sweetheart".

Derwin reminds me so much of my boo its crazy. Yes Derwin is cute, but he is like the type some dumb girls overlook because he is "nice" and not the average egotistical "asshole" like I described earlier. Some girls like that though...I dont!

Derwin & Melanie situation reminds me of so much what I went through in my relationship in more than one way its crazy! Its the one show I can seriously relate to.
I am like Melanie aka MED SCHOOL...I'm on the GOOD GIRL LIST check out what I wrote on my other blog here about it---> READ PLEASE.

I was the one going to school and was not the type of girl to be with him for his money. Just wanted a nice humble guy to share my life with. She was also very pretty but not materialistic or conceited. Another humble person and that is why Derwin & Melanie were so perfect for each other.

Anyways there are not too many DERWIN'S in the world. At least not in my world.
I truly just adore the sweet, laid-back, even lame at times, type of guy. I dont want the generic type of guy that follows trend at try to epitomizes what makes him a MAN.

He is a simple guy and I like that because someone has to balance me out alittle. I am the type who is so extroverted sometimes that I love introverts and that laid-backness calms me. I Love it! He is funny in his own right, he doesnt try too hard to get attention or to be Mr.Popular. He just is...

You can tell he is genuinely a nice guy. Derwin or Pooch reguardless I love him!
I love THE GAME (Please CW dont cancell it)!

I need a Derwin Davis in my life. I know someone like him though ::wink wink:::

TRIX ARE NOT ONLY FOR KIDS!

Silly Rabbit Trix are for Kids!

F That! I love my Trix Yogurt. I have been eating this since I was a kid and I am going to continue.

I though I would just post this because I just ate some Trix Wildberry Blue yogurt and it was the ish!

I just thought I should share.

I dont eat the other flavors...only the kind that comes in the Wild Berry Blue & Triple Cherry.

Oh and Trix: MAKE THE CONTAINERS BIGGER...MY GREEDY A** IS EATING LIKE 3 AT A TIME! (I know its for kids but can they make them for adults too?)

I thought this was so funny! "Gimme the DAMN TRIX"!

NIVEA IS PREGNANT TOO

So the rumors are so true. Nivea is PREGNANT!

So first I wanna say Congrats Nivea...not neccessarly on the baby(Congrats 2 that too) but she finally got rid of her multicolored hair! Yay!!!! Upgrade yourself girl!

Anyways so I posted about this a couple of days ago about the London Lauren situation and how she is supposely pregnant by the Gremlin...I mean Lil Wayne.

I also said it was rumored that if Nivea was pregnant(in which she is) that she is also pregnant by Lil Wayne.

I am tell you this is too crazy. Its not unusal though, because this happens everyday in your hood so a man knocking up more than one girl at a time is not so SHOCKING!!

But Lil Wayne, you get a lil more $$$ and just spreading your seed? Now if indeed Nivea and Laura London are pregnant he will have 4 children @ age 26. Lil Wayne be smart and put away 4 TRUST FUNDS for your children and get ready to get hit up 4 ways with CHILD SUPPORT!

I know Lil Wayne has money and everything but Nivea and Lauren gotta be full of it get knocked up by him. What kind of lies is he telling these chicks?

Oh and on a side note: This will also be Nivea's 3rd child. 3 of them are by THE DREAM.

So this comes to my conclusion that since Mystical got locked up a couple years ago, she has not been producing hit nor an album, so she is unemployed. Meaning she is one of these chicks that get her meal ticket through spermination...

If I didnt think Lil Wayne had something, and fear that my children will come out looking like Gremlin babies...I would get knocked up by him too (yeah right...the hell I look like)?

WRAP IT UP FOLKS! DONT BELIEVE SHE IS ON BIRTH CONTROL!!!!

LAUREN & DANGER: THE BABY MAMA EDITION

So this week both Lauren London & Danger debuted their pregnant bellies.

Both have denied being pregnant in the past and now are both showing the world that yes indeed they are sperminated. CONGRATS!

But here are the questions...WHO ARE THE BABIES FATHERS? SERIOUSLY...

1. Lauren London baby daddy is supposely Lil Wayne...its probably true. If it is true, its kinda stupid because he just had a baby 6 months ago and are they even together? Is Nivea pregnant by Wayne too(rumor).

2. Danger just denied on the reunion show, which was like 2 months ago, that she was pregnant. Wow so she looks like 6 months preggers now...could this be Ray-Js Baby like she was claiming? Or maybe it is that dude's baby(Nick Cannon's Brother). <---Dude is so dumb clearly she smashed the homies and probably his too! Ray-J get that paternity test ASAP!

But anyways time will tell for the both of them but I like pregger women no matter the circumstances, its not the children's fault, so CONGRATS LADIES!

***I seriously hope no matter the rumors, that they are with the children's fathers***

FLASHBACK TUESDAYS: BAD (Full Version) & SPEED DEMON

This is one of my favorite MJ videos.

I literally remember watching the video @ 2 years old and being facinated with it (in a trance).This is the side of Michael nobody ever since before (especially him turining completly white, straighten hair, & more surgery). I LOVE HOW MICHAEL MADE HIS VIDEOS INTO MOVIES!!!!

The is the full lenghten and most people just remember the short version. I always loved this version and I been waiting for them to play this on TV lately but they haven't (just the usual Thriller, Rock With You, Dont Stop Till You Get Enough, Black or White, etc...)

Michael supposed to be in High School I guess...but this video depicts him album and song...ITS BAD!!! Like forreal!!! This is Michael in Beat to the 10th power!

Still cant believe he is gone...this is CRAZY!


Pt.1 The inital storyline behind "BAD"


Pt.2 The Video "You aint bad you aint nothing!"

R.I.P. Michael Jackson 1958-2009

***For the real MJ fans who had the VHS and the entire story linked up...With Speed Demon (after the BAD video)...I used to be scared of this for some reason (I was 2). Reminise & Enjoy True Talent!***

THE DRAKE TRAIN

Have you heard of Drake? I am sure you have.

You know what is bugging me? Everyone riding the Drake train.

No No Dont get it twisted I LOVE DRAKE.

But I been rocking with Drake for a while!

Actually you guys put me onto the So Far Gone Mixtape not too long ago. I thank you guys for that!

But I knoew this was coming. The Drake Train has emerged! I love that Drake has made it mainstream, but I hate the fact that now maybe he is getting watered down. Let me explain...

Lil Wayne is exploiting this negro. The Best I Ever Had-Why did Lil Wayne have to jump on the remix? Successful- Again why did he have to be on it?

They are acting like Drake cant stand alone. He can STAND alone Lil Wayne. I think Lil Wayne is scared that Drake might blow his A** outta the water. Drake is very talented! But its like he is making Drake his puppy dog and I dont like that. I hate that he signed to Young Money, because Wayne is gonna be making the profit and once again exploiting him to hype his fam up!

Drake doesnt need Wayne. I think that is also the problem too...all the Wayne fans are also Drake fans (what a coinkidink!) That the problem.

1. I was trying to put people onto Drake the moment I heard him. I thought he was refreshing to the music industry because he wasnt 1 dimensional. NOBODY WANTED TO BE PUT ON...THEY WOULD TELL ME TO TURN IT OFF OR BE LIKE ITS OKAY.

2. DRAKE IS NOT NEW. AT ALL. I remember him from Replacement Girl w/Trey Songz & this dude was on DeGrassi (he is an actor too-triple threat!)

3.DRAKE Mixtapes are this ish. I am afraid when he comes out with his CD this year they are going to throw in some "mainstream bullish"...like having him talk about groupies, money, strippers, materialitic stuff, etc...he is so deep but I dont want him sounding like a mini Lil Wayne.

Like I said I am happy Drake is getting recognition, but I want people to appreciate his talent rather than his affiliation.

I really dont like the video for Best I Ever Had...it was just booty & dumb girls.

I love Drake beyond the mainstream songs

1.Lust4life

2 ANightOff

3.houstalantavegas

My top 3!

**The whole dating Rhianna situation is a BIG PUBLICITY STUNT for her***

I HAVE RESURFACED!

Again sorry for my delay on updating blogs.

It is very very difficult blogging through an i-touch and going to my college's library to use the internet. It sucks not having the resources to do what you need to do (besides blogging of course).

But God is so so so so good, I was able to get access to another laptop. Once again someone felt sorry for the poor recent-grad-who-is-so-broke-she-cant-afford-to-buy-her-own-laptop-and-no-one-would-get-her-one-as-a-grad-gift so I have access to a computer again. Yes! But again only temporary relief...

I want to put out there that I am very sad still that the King of Pop and pretty much the entire music industry, the LATE AND GREAT MICHAEL JACKSON. I know he is in heaven living peacefully and can finally be left alone (although he probably was pissed about the BS that was the BET AWARDS this year. WTF was they thinking)?

Anyways I been on another level lately. I have been on my up and up with highs and positivity...and my low of lows with alot of other things beyond my control. I decided I am also branching my blog into another blog which will be my more personal side. I have alot of emotions and feelings I need to let loose, and I cant do it on here because this is like my "random" happy go lucky blog I should say. I crack jokes and make fun of people, or just post about the highlights of my life or whatever.

So LIVE.LOVE.LEARN by Kiwi is active now.
------->http://www.livelovelearnbykiwi.blogspot.com/

This is my personal blog of me living,loving, and of course learning. Its really personal and I will let all of my emotional run free here. I will leave this blog to be my more upbeat blog and the other one for lifes lessons (not all boring and depressing). I am very sensitive so it will all be exposed there. Check it out and continue to support me where ever I go & post.

PEACE & BLESSINGS EVERYONE.