TWITTER CRUSH : I HAVE ONE

Okay so I have a Twitter Crush. Yes its not just a trending topic on twitter my #twittercrush is real! I had this #twittercrush before it was a topic...so I am kinda happy I am not the only one who has one.

Anyways this is just so innocent. I know the dude. The dude knows me. I went to school with him (I will not disclose whether it was high school or college). He has NO idea that I like him (at least via twitter). We dont talk like that. But I think he is extremely cute...and I like his twitter statuses. LOL

Its one of those things that you never really thought about that person like that, maybe some time went by and you noticed the older we got, the cuter that person has become. Or maybe that person has changed in more ways than one since you met them.

Its crazy that I have a #twittercrush because I probably haven't had a real crush since high school. I think its cute, I think he is cute, but maybe that is just it. Its a cute little internet thing. I actually feel kinda LAME for it because I am a GROWN woman and I shouldnt have crushes period! I should just DM @(twittercrushname) my number, tell him to call me, and tell him that we should link up or something. Maybe I should tweet him LOL :-)

Its not like I dont know him. He knows my name. We live in the same state so its not like it would be an issue. I know he is single, I guess I am single so what is my problem? I am a LAME and yes there is a possiblity I might want more than just a #twittercrush with this person...but for now thats is all its gonna be.

Who knows what might happen though. Maybe I will Drink & Tweet and tell him how I feel. Maybe...maybe not.Who knows..

WHY U SO OBSESSED WITH ME?

Just to let you know "Obsessed" the Movie was very predict-a-ble! Lifetime orginal...

I love Mariah's new song "Obsessed".

OMG with social media stuff like FaceBook, Twitter, and my blogs I am making it easier for people to stalk the ish outta me and satisfy their "obsession"! **By the way WTF(Why The F**k) does Twitter & Blogger suggest people to "follow" them...you are provoking the stalkers!!Anyways...

I have a couple of stalker stories I like to share but first I want to put this out here. There is a huge difference between a little checking up on somebody & STALKING! I am a little nosy so yeah I have "checked up" on some people...but NEVER STALKED!

-I had a dude know my school schedule and would always bump into me after I got outta class.What a coink-i-dink!

-I had a dude follow me from the highway to McDonalds for my #

-I had a dude follow me from clubs to other locations Waffle House, Gas Stations, etc...

-I had several dude stalk me in the grocery store to watch me aisle for aisle and then pick the perfect opportunity to "talk" to me.

-I had a Myspace stalker that I do not wanna talk about it [very creepy] in which is why I do not be on that mess any more.

-I posted my job on my FaceBook page when I used to work at Bath&Body Works and this dude literally kept staring at me & didnt want my help when I asked him. He then revealed conicidently "arent we facebook friends"? OMG did you just ask me that? I think he just came up there to see me in person[to which is why I dont have too many strangers as FB friends].

-I had a dude last week have a wack convo with me and wouldnt leave me alone, and he got my number not from my friend, but searched it in her phone and stole it! [True Story]

-I had a dude in the mall who I have no spoken to in forever who I thought lost my number, watch me go from store to store to call me and tell me he knows where I am at. "I see you shopping in Macy's. I seen you earlier in that other store too and didnt wanna say nothing...yeah I am not even in Macy I am outside of it". Are you watching me shop store to store? Super Stalker.

-I had a dude steal my pictures on Blackplanet, put them on his page and told the world I was his girlfriend. One of my friends had to tell me about that one.

I have so many stories about dudes who are so obsessed with me I rather not write that novel today. I mean sometimes I am literally paranoid where I go because I be feeling like someone is stalking me. I mean IDK whats wrong with people. Get a freaking life. If I am not interested in you stop bothering me...dont stalk me from a distance either.

Oh and this doesnt just go for guys either. There are females who stalk me too. Not because they gay or anything...because they are true haters. They wanna know about my life because I guess I got something they want. They are probably reading this blog so if you are reading this Hey Girl!!! ***There is more than one too I know this for a FACT! (whatever though).

That is why my FaceBook is super-private, Myspace private, and Twitter is about to be private. Social Media is making this stuff too easy...but dont worry my blogs will stay open. Read my other blog LIVE.LOVE.LOVE

STALKERS ARE THE NEW HATERS EVERYONE!

WHY YOU SO OBSESSED WITH ME?!

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PARANOID

So the topic of the day is paranoia.

Why are people so paranoid?

I have the answer...because people cant be trusted!

When you are in a relationship I dont think people want to be paranoid, but we live in a world of cheaters and decievers and its very hard to tell if people are being honest anymore.

We live in a world that people lie to us on a constant basis and smile in your face, but when your not around all type of ish is going on.

Or maybe not. Maybe nothing is going on...maybe you have the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend and that person would not betray you at all.

That is the one thing that is so hard to do, is to trust someone again after they betrayed it.
In my relationship my current boyfriend in the beginning had me believing that he was so innocent. Like literally I never had anything to worry about, because he would be all on me and call me all hours of the day and want to be around me on a constant basis.

He did something a while ago and I am not going to go into detail, but from that day I never fully trusted him again. Everytime his phone goes off sometimes, especially a text, I am ultra paranoid...

I am paranoid of the unknown. I dont like what I cant see. I dont like assuming things either, but sometimes honestly I cannot help it. I went from I 100% trusted him to now I am 50% trust 50% on edge.

So yes I confess that I am paranoid. Very and it hurts sometimes because I really dont want to be this way, but what can I do. There are females in this world who do not care that my man is in a relationship with me. Its so competitive out here with the female to male ratio (especially in my city) of 20:1 that girl will go out their way to break up a happy home just so that they can have someone.

But as I said before, I do want to trust because I dont want to live my life stress out if there is something fishy going on. Hopefully I can get like I did before. Trust need to be regained.

They say people are paranoid because they have something to hide themselves. Not me! I am not doing anything and that is what make it worst. I am completely honest and sometimes I feel like my honesty and faithfulness gets taken for granted.

But let me stop running my mouth. Things are good but you know...you hit bumpy roads in your relationships sometimes. That is life and you live, love, and learn.

Here is Kanye West's new video "Paranoid". Rhianna looks like she is still in the "Disturbia" video. Interesting...

My First Confession

I decided to do a blog on my confessions.

I dunno why, but I thought it was a nice concept so here is my first one.