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FLASHBACK TUESDAYS:ALMOST DOESNT COUNT

FINALLY I AM BACK ON TRACK (SORTA)


So I was listening to my i-touch in my car on Saturday on shuffle, and I asked God to play and sound that can I can relate to how I feel, and this song came on.

Almost Doesn't Count-Brandy

This is another one of these songs where as a child you loved the song, but didnt get the lyrics until an adult. I finally understand this song forreal and it goes very well with my situation.

I dont want to talk about my situation anymore like that because I want to focus on the positive but I will post the lyrics and bold the words that hit close to home! Its sad how everything was almost coming together for the both of us...but like the freaking song"Almost Doesnt Count" ---Never Give Up Hope.

"Almost Doesn't Count"

Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, baby
Didn't I didn't I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
You'd found it in me
But you can't get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

I can't keep on lovin' you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that's never really sure
Can't keep on tryin'
If you're looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man
You came real close
But everytime you built me up
You only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Maybe you'll be sorry
Maybe you'll be cold
Maybe you'll come runnin' back, baby
From the cruel cruel world
Almost convince me
You're gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count
So maybe I'll be here
Maybe I'll see ya around
That's the way it goes
Almost doesn't count

GETTING PERSONAL

Ok so this week has been really shaky between my boo and I. It's so weird because we been through so much and everytime things are looking up, something comes to a halt in our relationship.

I literally dunno what to do so instead of forcing the issue or to prevent things from getting worse I just decided to give him his space. He gets in a mood where he don't want to talk and I almost feel like giving up because this is ridiculous.

It only hurts because I remember last year I was getting over my ex if 3 years and I tried to push him away. At the time I was going through an emotional rolkercoaster and I didn't want to drag him in my drama. I told him on many occassions that he doesn't have to be bothered with me if I have too much baggage.

He was always there and told me he understood. That he would be there waiting when I offically get over him and that he cares about me and wanted to wait for me. I never had a guy so patient and sincere with me. But still I had trust issues because as good as he seemed I didn't want him to break my heart.

I didn't want to go through this again and I told him. He kept assuring me that he wouldnt do that because he knew what I went through. He said everytime he heard "Cant Help But Wait" by Trey Songz he thought of us.

So I believed him, fell in love, and I think my heart is going to be broken again! Why did I trust him? Why did I do this love thing again? I mean I love being in love. I love him but risking my heart this is serious.

Now I am not giving up or jump to conclusions yet. I pray everyday for the negativity to go away and bring us closer together. That is all I can do is seek God to help the situation...it's kind of out of my hands now.

God lead us to each other and he can bring us back together with a closer bond. Live.Love.Learn

SORRY AGAIN

I have been ghost again guys...sorry

It's not my fault, my bf has the laptop and let his Dad borrow it so I can update like I want to.

I am on my i-touch updating this(they really do have an app for everything). I think there so bad luck around me because certain things are just happening back to back to back.

SUCKS!!!

But don't worry, God is good. I will be back with more if my goofy self...

Just don't unfollow me and forget about me while I am gone.

*as soon as I get the laptop back I have a new blog coming soon. Follow me on Twitter-----> www.twitter.com/kiwimami

RANDOM THURSDAYS: NICOLE WRAY

MAKE IT HOT BY NICOLE WRAY

Damn this was suppose to be a Flashback Tuesday post (I saved it to my drafts any everything to post but oh wellz)...so I made this into a Random Thursday post (I havent done one of these in a while anyways). So Where is she now? Missy are you hiding her with Tweet...and where the fluck is Mocha? Mocha never had her own solo or nothing!

Anyways this song makes me feel kind of old in a way because I was 11 years old when this song came out, and I literally remember this song like it was yesterday. The summer with my friends in '97. I used to love this song...I hope it brought back memories for everyone like it has for me!

****BONUS****


I CANT SEE By NICOLE WRAY

I USED TO KILL THIS SONG. THIS IS REAL R&B (To me anyways).

ITS A DAMN SHAME HOW MTV DOESN'T PLAY MUSIC VIDEO ANYMORE. DO YOU ALL KNOW MTV=MUSIC TELEVISION? IF YOU ARE SHOCKED I DONT BLAMED U...ALL THESE REALITY SHOWS IT NEEDS TO BE RTV NOW RIGHT?

TWITTER IS COOL...BUT I STILL LOVE MY FACEBOOK

So people, including myself, have jump on the TwitterTrain (follow me www.twitter.com/kiwimami).

If you dont know what Twitter is but have a Facebook, let me break it down to you what this new phenomenomn is. Basically it is like updating your Facebook status 24/7 all day every day...about random ish...

So people are talking that since the Tweet updates are better than updating one's Facebook status, that surely FB is useless now right. WRONG! WRONG WRONG!

Twitter is cool but I still have so much Love for FaceBook! It still has things that I love. Twitter is #1 rising social media networking site right now, but Facebook still has plenty of love...and I will tell you why.

-Because you can still be super nosy- Yes I said it! Everyone knows Facebook is like stalkerville. With the ease of the FB Newsfeeds, you can look at people's everything from their photos, to status updates, to dating, to wall postings. You gotta keep up with people, even the ones you haven't talk to since high school. Its like following Celebrity gossip, only with people you actually know (Girl guess who is pregnant now, again?)

-Because of the photos- I cant be the only one who can wait to go out and do something with my friends and we all have our cameras so we can yes...POST THEM ON FACEBOOK! I know I am not the only one and its fun to get tag and tag your friends. Also bonus points to tag your friends doing stupid, embarassing things to tag them in so they can fuss and beg you to take it down (NOOO!) Confession Alert: I love tagging my BF to all of our picture so I can let his so called "friends" or as I call them "groupies" know that I am around...all the time (so everytime you look at my man's photo's you will see my a** in them too...TRY ME AND GET YUOR FEELINGS HURT).

-Because I still like Facebook status updates- Yes Twitter updates are accessible all day but sometimes they are so obnoxious. Facebook statuses are more genuine to be and simple. I don't like to see all the time someone update how they just "used the bathroom" or "I cant sleep so I am going to tell you everything I am doing by the second until I tire myself out". Facebook users know better not update their status all the time.

-Because I can see people I have seen literally in decades- Yes Facebook is responsible for connecting us with people we have not seen since forever. Yes I have even reaquainted myself with people from my elementary school. We dont have elementary school reunions so thanks Facebook! And speaking of reunions, soon people can forget their 10 year reunions because you pretty much will know everyones lives and updates, what will be the point soon? I guess personally connection...Damnit I guess I will still go to mine.

-Because I dont have to be your friend, but you can still kind of see me.- This is targeted to someone in my past. I am not this person's friend on FB nor do I want to. I dont want him to see my updates or my pictures nor do I wanna see this person's info. But this person wanted to be so close to me in anyway they could, so they befriended one of my best friends...so this person can see all of my pictures if me & her are tagged together. They get a sprinkle of my life but still closed out. I love it!

Because Facebook is the ish- Since I joined in '05 it never failed me. It might go through its little stupid layout changes and such, but it is still my fav social media tool. Facebook I will not neglect you (unless you F-up).

*****Sorry folks I cannot link my Facebook page for you guys. It is hidden and even if you search me, you wont find me. I kind of like it that way because if you goggle search me, cant find it. It has my govt name on it so I cant add it as a badge (or this blog will show up on the search engine and I dont want certain people to know about this blog- employers or other people). So for now I cannot link you to it. But if you comment on here for me to add you as a friend I would love to be your FB friend (Thats FaceBook Friend you jerk-lol)!****

COMMENT FOR ME TO ADD YOU AS A FACEBOOK FRIEND

***UNDERCONSTRUCTION***

My blog layout is getting on my nerves...

I am sick of it and need something more...

I am not sure what exactly the look I am going for, but I need to do better than this...

I am still going to be posting blogs, but gotta find a better layout other than this. (If you know any free blogger websites with cute layouts please let me know...thanks!)

I am being my own PR person and revamping this place here...

So be on the lookout for the new kiwitm.blogspot.com.

Thanks for reading.

Oh and because I am random and a Youtube whore please check out this video clip.
This suburban thug is a scared to kill a bug (roach+spider+fly???) and took him 3 1/2 to kill it. What a punk! DRAMATIC MUCH? LOL it is hilarious thanks Paige <---follow her I just did today! This clip was too much!



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PARANOID

So the topic of the day is paranoia.

Why are people so paranoid?

I have the answer...because people cant be trusted!

When you are in a relationship I dont think people want to be paranoid, but we live in a world of cheaters and decievers and its very hard to tell if people are being honest anymore.

We live in a world that people lie to us on a constant basis and smile in your face, but when your not around all type of ish is going on.

Or maybe not. Maybe nothing is going on...maybe you have the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend and that person would not betray you at all.

That is the one thing that is so hard to do, is to trust someone again after they betrayed it.
In my relationship my current boyfriend in the beginning had me believing that he was so innocent. Like literally I never had anything to worry about, because he would be all on me and call me all hours of the day and want to be around me on a constant basis.

He did something a while ago and I am not going to go into detail, but from that day I never fully trusted him again. Everytime his phone goes off sometimes, especially a text, I am ultra paranoid...

I am paranoid of the unknown. I dont like what I cant see. I dont like assuming things either, but sometimes honestly I cannot help it. I went from I 100% trusted him to now I am 50% trust 50% on edge.

So yes I confess that I am paranoid. Very and it hurts sometimes because I really dont want to be this way, but what can I do. There are females in this world who do not care that my man is in a relationship with me. Its so competitive out here with the female to male ratio (especially in my city) of 20:1 that girl will go out their way to break up a happy home just so that they can have someone.

But as I said before, I do want to trust because I dont want to live my life stress out if there is something fishy going on. Hopefully I can get like I did before. Trust need to be regained.

They say people are paranoid because they have something to hide themselves. Not me! I am not doing anything and that is what make it worst. I am completely honest and sometimes I feel like my honesty and faithfulness gets taken for granted.

But let me stop running my mouth. Things are good but you know...you hit bumpy roads in your relationships sometimes. That is life and you live, love, and learn.

Here is Kanye West's new video "Paranoid". Rhianna looks like she is still in the "Disturbia" video. Interesting...

The SPECTANGULAR DISEASE HAD SPREAD...

The SPECTANGULAR DIEASE IS BEING SPREAD LIKE THE SWINE FLU!

Now contrary to popular belief the '"spectangular disease" is not new...just reinvented...

I believe Bobby Brown was like one of the first people to actually "grind" during his concerts back in the day(if it was someone else b4 him let me know). Yes for all you '90 babies Bobby Brown was sexy b4 the crack...4Real! What you all know about Tenderoni [dont know click here]<<

Then a couple of years later R.Kelly aka Mr.Bump & Grind made grinding really popular in the 90's.

And then we have this ish here...Below are a few things I have been seeing on Youtube...

Some of them are prior to his "stunt" some of them are after...it doesnt matter this is not THE BUISNESS...THIS IS NOT OKAY!

Its not okay to oil your body down and actually do a video response for Spec...You Gay too!

Hunching the end of the bed is NOT OKAY!!!

Oh no...its a group of them...Its gay just because the are all in the same room doing this...(and they are doing this to my fav song "Night Off" By Drake & Llyod...NOO!!!)

Now some of this is okay because it is kind of interesting...but you have a partner and some of this ish is extra SUSPECT! NO BUENO especially @ 2:02 NEVER EVER OKAY! EVER!!!



I know this was a joke, but this fat dude and his chest chain needs 2 stop...so again this is NOT OKAY(i am not gonna say n-e thing about the eye either...Nope)



Funniest thing(besides the orginal Spec video) I have laughed at in a while. I literally LOL'd @0:26 & Died @ 1:21(I am so done)

SO MORAL OF THE STORY...ESPECIALLY FOR YOU GENTLEMEN GRINDING=SUSPENSIONS ON YOUR SEXUALITY

YOU THINK SEXY MOST WOMEN THINK DOWN LOW...DONT DO IT! NO THANK YOU!

PUBLICITY STUNTS!

This was so so staged. I didnt need someone at MTV to clarify this.

The moment I seen this on television...I knew this was some fake ish!

If you seen his reaction from the moment "Bruno" was coming down towards him, why didnt Eminem move? Any straight man (not that I am implying Eminem isnt but maybe I am) would of seen bare ass and balls and got to moving.

Not only that, but he also sat and teabagged and didnt fight him?! That would of been an immediate beat-your-ass moment, but instead him and "his crew" walked off. WTF?

But its fake and whatever...but it got the job done! That little stunt recieved ratings, buzzes, and everything and people are still talking about it.

So it created a stunt that generated buzz for MTV & that movie Bruno!

WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF PUBLICITY STUNTS!

A little touchy feely arent we?!

Another great publicity stunt for the Spike Awards.

This show doesnt even come out for 2-3 more weeks and this is getting people hyped!

People got all types of things to say about it, but again this is Hollywood so this was probably staged too! Think about it!

So what if she is married? I am pretty sure they are great friends, and this is mucho acceptable with them being in the A-List club and all...I think this was pretty funny!

Halleeeeee Berrrrrrrrrry!!!! Halle Berry indeed!

And Publicity Stunt of the freaking year thus far goes to SPECTACULAR(y GAY)

I didnt want to talk or post this video but for the sake of my publicity theme I will do it.

So in case you didnt know, Mr.I-DID-THIS-FOR-THE-LADIES came out with another video in response to this [CLICK HERE]

So he is trying to convince people he is not gay, by putting on some tight boxer brief (I guess that is an upgrade) and making a public service announcement that he did this video for "the ladies"...LMMFAO!! LIAR.

So he continues to torture us with laughter once more with yet another video.

NEWSFLASH:NOBODY BELIEVE YOU!

1. If this was stricky for the ladies why did you challenge and say "This is a challenge for all them boys who be grinding out there. I wanna know who #1. So from Bow Wow, Chris Brown, to Omarion, to Trey Songz, to Day26..." (this is very very homo and directed to men)

2. Why is a chair involved? What did the chair do to you?

3. What makes him think that him doing these moves are turning woman on?

4. Is he talking about Transgendered ladies maybe?

5.Why does he look like he practice these moves on men?

6. Is this how he demostrates how he has sex? If so, its sad (for women and men)

7.Why is there a grown man name Lingerie? Forreal? Forreal forreal?

8.Did you honestly believe that you wearing all that jewerly and taking it off was proving your masculinity? Homo Thug!

9. Why does it end it with a double flip and say "You p***y a** ni**az"...I bet that is exactly what anal feels like for you...a p***y. Ironic huh?

Watch this BS. Oh and yes he is still shaming Pretty Ricky for their "Tipsy" single. If I was apart of this group I would slap him!

I AM SO MAD @ THIS!

Spectacular...aka Sexy Spec you get a FAIL for this and my verdict is YOUR GAY

BIRTHDAY SEX

OMG Do I love this song!! MY SUMMER SONG OF '09

If only I could of had birthday sex on my birthday this year, but couldnt due to human nature {booo!!!}BIRTHDAY SEX IS THE BEST!

Anyways now I am a video analysis, basically I look at the video concept and critic whether it was good or just like all these other manufactured videos.

When I say this is a great video...its is GREAT!

Now some people will probably be like this could of been better for the the hype value of the song. Some probably will say it didnt match the song well enough.

Well I say it was done very tastifully because it is talking about "SEX" and they found a way to do a sexy video without going "RAUNCHY". You all have to remember this video will be played several times on 106NPark so the targeted audience is usually middle school and high school kids...so it could not be too raunchy.

They did a couple things in this video that showed the intimacy of the couple that made me good Oh My...but still very PG-13 Rated. Very sensual and seductive...

I love how the girl smashed the strawberries with her hand...That to me was interesting.

Oh and the best part of this entire video...the girl had her clothes on the entire video! That was so sexy (no homo)! Forreal...what some people do not understand is sexy is not ripping off all of your clothes and showing the world your goodies, it is the mystery behind all of that! Classy girl!

Oh and this chick has stunning eyes! This Video gets an A+

Oh and enjoy this flashback video from Janet Jackson "I get so Lonely"
This was my ish...and the video was very sexy and again not RAUNCHY!
I almost forgot how much of a BAD BISH Janet was!

CONGRATS KIMORA

Congrats to Kimora for delivering her baby boy!

I am so happy for her...and I am happy she finally had a boy [I bet Russell is mad]

She pulled an Eryka Badu move a Twittered her labor "Having contractions now! Ooo- wee! It's like WHOA! Love & Light, KLS"-forreal? Is this whats up now? People Twitter everything now!

I am so interested on how the baby will look...I bet a very exotic cute mix!

Anyways I have always loved Kimora...she is my idol. So God Bless her family and cant wait for the baby name!

Is it Dijmon II? Well will see...

CONGRATS KIMORA!!!!