GETTING PERSONAL

Ok so this week has been really shaky between my boo and I. It's so weird because we been through so much and everytime things are looking up, something comes to a halt in our relationship.

I literally dunno what to do so instead of forcing the issue or to prevent things from getting worse I just decided to give him his space. He gets in a mood where he don't want to talk and I almost feel like giving up because this is ridiculous.

It only hurts because I remember last year I was getting over my ex if 3 years and I tried to push him away. At the time I was going through an emotional rolkercoaster and I didn't want to drag him in my drama. I told him on many occassions that he doesn't have to be bothered with me if I have too much baggage.

He was always there and told me he understood. That he would be there waiting when I offically get over him and that he cares about me and wanted to wait for me. I never had a guy so patient and sincere with me. But still I had trust issues because as good as he seemed I didn't want him to break my heart.

I didn't want to go through this again and I told him. He kept assuring me that he wouldnt do that because he knew what I went through. He said everytime he heard "Cant Help But Wait" by Trey Songz he thought of us.

So I believed him, fell in love, and I think my heart is going to be broken again! Why did I trust him? Why did I do this love thing again? I mean I love being in love. I love him but risking my heart this is serious.

Now I am not giving up or jump to conclusions yet. I pray everyday for the negativity to go away and bring us closer together. That is all I can do is seek God to help the situation...it's kind of out of my hands now.

God lead us to each other and he can bring us back together with a closer bond. Live.Love.Learn